17 Julai 2012

3.23 pm, Segambut.


Mengantuk. Masuk bilik. Bosan sorang-sorang. Turun dapur. Erm... Nak buat nescafe lah.


Ambil mug. Masukkan nescafe. Masukkan gula. Tuang susu pekat. [Otak still kosong]


Minum.
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Pffftttt. (Tersembur keluar)


Look around. 


OMG did I just poured both sugar and sweetened creamer????!!!


DAMN.


I guess I'm so used to having you around. 


19 hours and counting. :(

I VOW

"To help you love life

To always hold you with tenderness

To have the patience that love demands

To speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not

To live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home

To live within the warmth of your heart

To fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever

To love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other.

To never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love."

-The Vow, 2012-

It will rain every now and then

I never promised you a ray of light, 
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday, 
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal, 
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below, 
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.

One thing is clear, 
I wear a halo when you look at me, 
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
You wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I I just wanna love you, 

I always said that I would make mistakes, 
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace, 
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin, 
So pull me from that pedestal, 
I don't belong there.

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It's only in your mind
Only in your mind

I wear a Halo

Super Husband

WEEK 1

I'm all over the place. First week staying alone with hubby, I'm more busy with my school works rather than doing house chores. Can you believe that?? Meetings after school, going back past 3pm, reach home at around 4pm, EXHAUSTED.

KESIAN SUAMI SAYA.

I'm lucky for having this wonderful guy as my husband. He made me 'dinner cum supper' the other day since I stucked with my lappy (alone at the study room) completing my Add Maths Yearly Teaching Plan. Although it wasn't the normal meal we eat for dinner, I thank you for that and for being super understanding. I love you. ❤

Next Friday

Lihatlah Langit Di Atas Sana

Tersenyum Melihat Tingkah Kita

Selalu Ada Peristiwa

Yang Membawa Pertengkaran

Maksudku Hanya Ingin Yang Baik

Untuk Kita Berdua Dalam Bercinta

Baiknya Aku Buruknya Aku

Terimalah Aku Apa Adanya

Pastikan Kau Dengan Aku

Jangan Ada Cinta Lain

Tak Pernah Aku Terlintas

Niat Ku Untuk Berpaling

Maafkanlah Aku Sayang

Bila Belum Kau Bahagia

Sejauh Langit Di Atas

Kan Ku Kejar Bahagiamu

Biar Langit Dan Bumi Meruntuh

Biar Jasad Kita Tertimbun Di Sana

Tetap Bersama, Tak Ingin Lepas

Mencintaimu Ku Jadi Begini

7 days!!

Menggedik sessions

We didn't go for pre-wedding photography session coz I think the poses are limited. Haha. Yes? But anyways, we did snap a few photos for our guestbook. Of course I'm not gonna show them here..Tak surprise la kan. Haha.

But I've got some teasers for you. :p

p/s : Credits go to Berg, Farid and Usop. Thanks guys!

Marah ye marah. tapi sayang.

kalau jahat, jahat juga

Lepas sesi 'kaunseling' oleh kanda-kanda di kantin siang tadi, teringat aku akan kisah kena 'sound' dek seorang pekerja ofis sekolah tak lama dulu. 

Kata Encik I yang mengusik aku nak kawin, "Jangan kata tak ada yang ingatkan ya kalau kawin dengan orang macam tu..."

Aku sangat faham maksud Encik I. Dulu pun aku dalam golongan anti juga. *Sorry* Tapi betul kata orang, TAK KENAL MAKA TAK CINTA. And moral of the story, jangan nak anti2 sangat, Tuhan tu sentiasa uji apa yang kita cakap. huhu.

So agak-agak apa respond aku kat Encik I tadi?? hehe. Aku jawab, "Encik I, mama saya kata, nak cari lelaki, cari yang sempurna solatnya, InsyaAllah senang hidup. So saya rasa saya dah bagi calon menantu terbaik kat mama saya. And dia sayang saya. Cukuplah kan?"

Encik I senyum je. Saya tau Encik sayang saya kan. hahahahaha. *boleh eh camtu.

Terima kasih Encik I, atas ingatan tulus ikhlas. Begitu juga dengan kanda-kanda yang sentiasa bagi moral supports. Especially buat kak Nik yang menutup sesi 'kaunseling' tadi dengan ayat "tak kira kita ni kerja apa pun, kalau dua-dua (suami isteri) ada pegangan agama yang kuat, InsyaAllah. Orang kalau nak jadi jahat, kerja apa pun boleh jadi jahat jugak" SAYA INGAT SAMPAI MATI KAK

And buat AWAK, I trust you. Cuma diingatkan, kalau dah merenung bintang di langit, RUMPUT di bumi dilupa jangan. xoxo.

IT'S SO QUIET HERE

I'm about to lose my mind

You've been gone for so long

You're The Apple to My Pie

You see things black and white.

I don't. 

You get that?

We complete each other.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND!

Tak sah lah if today passed without this entry kan bro. =P

First thing first, I think I should thank your mum for giving birth to someone wonderful like you. Hehe. But takkan nak sms mama awak cakap camtu kan? Kang teragak2 plak nak buat menantu. =P

So..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

I'm taking this opportunity to show my deepest thoughts and feelings for you, the person I love. I'm not good in buying stuff, so this feeling I’ll confess as treasures that money can’t buy. And I know it’ll stay in your mind and heart (besides the fact that you always have short-term memory loss!)

I'm looking forward to celebrate this day with you TOGETHER for the rest of my life.

I hope I can make your dreams come true.

=P

xoxo,

TEMO.

MARRIAGE

I got this from my sister. PLEASE READ. PLEASE.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

 

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

 

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

 

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

THE FIRST ♥‿♥

Pstt..Remember this? Haha. It's a good thing u are so ramah.✌

Sayang vs Cinta

Ingat tak isu ni pernah dipersoalkan dalam entry dolu2? hehe.

Sekarang saya dah tau apa beza nya. Sayang dan cinta memang tak sama. Titik.

I wanna grow old with YOU.

p/s : I cari gambar dalam cockpit tak jumpa. haha. =P

Love Note

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
 

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

Apa jadi kalau saya 'conteng' wall awak macam ni

"Hey Boyfriend!"  ^_^

I'm busy but I miss you. 

Don't know if I could ever be without you
Cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
Cause your the one for me
And I'm the one for you
You take the both of us
And we're the perfect two

 

p/s : KAKNGAH, thanks for introducing the song! It IS sweet, indeed.

Crossroad

(Rasa macam pernah ada entry tajuk yang sama)

Hidup tak pernah serumit ini. Ini soal hidup mati ni. Okay, exaggerate. Hee. Kalau kita perlu memilih sesuatu yang penting, kena buat istikharah kan? Tapi jujurnya, saya takut kalau keputusannya nanti bukan yang saya harapkan. Banyak hati yang akan terlibat. Memang beginikah hidup?

“Rabbana hablana min azwajina wa zurriyatina qurrata a’yun waj’alna lil muttaqina imama”

LOVE songs

Yang, update songs! =)

1. Josh Groban, Awake
2. Trisha Yearwood, I Would've Loved You Anyway
3. Luther Vandross, Here and Now

p/s : bosan

Chinta

Sambil-sambil mark paper Add Maths semalam I watched (or kebih tepat 'listen to') Chinta. And suddenly I heard this dialogue.

Kawan Rasul Iman : Kau nak kahwin, bukan nak pergi berperang. Nak sedia apa?

Wow. Hot nye ayat dia. Kan? Kan? Haha.

::Jiwang::

Dah lama tak letak diri sendiri dalam mode jiwang. Haha. Tiba-tiba dengar Siti nyanyi lagu2 yang ada ayat-ayat macam ni..

Lagu 1 :

"Sewaktu mula bertemu dulu
Ku anggap kau hanya kawan
Tetapi telah sudah mesra
Berputiknya rasa sayang

Pabila kita tidak bertemu
Terasa rindu di kalbu
Akhirnya kita menyedari
Yang kita sudah jatuh cinta"

Lagu 2 :

"Kiranya dulu ku pernah terluka
Dalam bahagia hati ku tersiksa
Dalam ceria aku sebenarnya gerhana

Hadirnya kau dalam hidupku
Membawakan sinar baru
Dan kini rindumu
Sering datang untuk bertemu"

Comel kan?? Cakap comel jugak! hehe. So siapa pandai, nyatakan tajuk lagu-lagu tersebut.