::Me being ME::

I think eventually we learn to define happiness for ourselves in our own terms, in spite of the pain people have caused us.

Thanks to my extra-supportive friends! Sayyyang korang!!

Nad : Menghitung hari nk jumpe kau ni!!! haha

Dina : Happy that i shared with you too! Rase mcm dekaaattt je. =P

Ammir : Thanx a lot for spending time layan org emo. ;-P

Doa seorang kekasih (or not hehe)

Oh Tuhan, seandainya telah Kau catatkan

Dia milikku, tercipta untuk diriku

Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku

Titipkanlah kebahagiaan

Ya Allah, ku mohon

Apa yang telah Kau takdirkan

Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buatku

Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku

Pelihara daku dari kemurkaanMu

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pemurah

Beri kekuatan jua harapan

Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya

Semaikan setulus kasih di jiwa

Ku pasrah kepadaMu

Kurniakanlah aku

Pasangan yang beriman

Bisa menemani aku

Supaya ku dan dia

Dapat melayar bahtera

Ke muara cinta yang Engkau redhai

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha Pengasih

Engkau sahaja pemeliharaku

Dengarkan rintihan hambaMu ini

Jangan Engkau biarkan ku sendiri

Agarku bisa bahagia

Walau tanpa bersamanya

Gantikanlah yang hilang

Tumbuhkan yang telah patah

Ku inginkan bahagia

Di dunia dan akhirat

PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segala

Inteam '04

::Question from a kid::

I never realized how stressful I am until my student asked me this.

“Cikgu, kenapa hari ni cikgu muram je?”

Huhu. So I just smiled and say “banyak kerja lah”. But then I answered it quietly, “I guess I just can’t put on a smile while my heart doesn’t”

My dearly student,
Right now there’re sooooo many things going on. So can you please give your teacher a chance to pass her miserable episode for awhile?

::Happy Teacher's Day::

BERBURU ke padang datar

Dapat rusa belang kaki

Berguru kepalang ajar

Ibarat bunga kembang tak jadi

Dialah pemberi paling setia

Tiap akar ilmu miliknya

Pelita dan lampu segala

Untuk manusia sebelum jadi dewasa.

Dialah ibu dialah bapa juga sahabat

Alur kesetiaan mengalirkan nasihat

Pemimpin yang ditauliahkan segala umat

Seribu tahun katanya menjadi hikmat.

Jika hari ini seorang Perdana Menteri berkuasa

Jika hari ini seorang Raja menaiki takhta

Jika hari ini seorang Presiden sebuah negara

Jika hari ini seorang ulama yang mulia

Jika hari ini seorang peguam menang bicara

Jika hari ini seorang penulis terkemuka

Jika hari ini siapa sahaja menjadi dewasa;

Sejarahnya dimulakan oleh seorang guru biasa

Dengan lembut sabarnya mengajar tulis-baca.

Di mana-mana dia berdiri di muka muridnya

Di sebuah sekolah mewah di Ibu Kota

Di bangunan tua sekolah Hulu Terengganu

Dia adalah guru mewakili seribu buku;

Semakin terpencil duduknya di ceruk desa

Semakin bererti tugasnya kepada negara.

Jadilah apa pun pada akhir kehidupanmu, guruku

Budi yang diapungkan di dulangi ilmu

Panggilan keramat "cikgu" kekal terpahat

Menjadi kenangan ke akhir hayat.

USMAN AWANG

1979

Selamat Hari Guru kepada semua guru saya, kaum keluarga saya yang bergelar guru dan kawan-kawan saya yang menjadi guru. Heheh.

"Guru Pembina Negara Bangsa"

::Hanis Sufiah::

Tanamkan minat membaca dalam jiwa kanak-kanak

Her fav cookie..mmg takkan ingat dunia!

Rambut yang sgt berserabut!!!!!!

1 ari nnt akan kupotong rambutmu dan akan

meraung-raunglah kakngahmu melihatnya..hahaha...

Lately Hanis seems to have another fav-weird-annoying question.

"Hanis nak makan ape?????"

She asks that Q to everybody..and she will repeat it again and again sampai orang bg makanan yg tepat untuk die makan.

Weh! Agak2 la..sendiri nk makan pon malas nk pk ke???

But I really LOVE to bother her..Haha..suke2! Suke dgr die merungut2 dgn muke bajet-tak-ingat die tu..Huhu...Alangkah kejamnya kaklong dia...

Another fav word of her.. "Senyap2!" Haha..Kau la senyap!

::When ideas didn't "show up"::

1. 3 NAMES IN YOUR INBOX CELLPHONE? Nad, Siti and (alamak!!)....

2. YOUR MAIN RINGTONE? "Just Dance"

3. WHAT U DID AT 12 LAST NIGHT? tDo la!

4 . WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON U WENT OUT WITH? WHERE? Erm..my mum, Sogo. =)

5. THE COLOR OF THE T'SHIRT YOU'RE WEARING? NOW? Blue

6. THE LAST THING U DID? drinking water..gile panas ah sekarang!

7. 3 OF YOUR EVERYDAY FAVORITE ITEMS? Laptop, mirror and hp

8. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM? blue (kL) and white (shah alam)

9. HOW MUCH MONEY IN YOUR WALLET NOW? wah! erm..wallet kat atas malas nk g tgk. =P

10. HOW'S LIFE? Boring..? erm..

11. YOUR FAVORITE SONG? Boom boom POW! haha..

12. WHAT WILL U DO NEXT WEEKEND? Lepak kat rumah i guess..

13. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U SAW UR MOM? Just now! haha..

14. WHERE IS SHE NOW? Sleeping in her bedroom

15. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TALKED TO YOUR PARENTS? Just now jugak!

16. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TEXTED U? Nad! hihi.. =) Luckily...phew..

17.WHERE DID U HAVE UR DINNER LASTNIGHT? Parents' house

18. LAST THING U BORROWED FROM UR FRIENDS? notes for interview..senarai kabinet 2009. Haha!

19. WHO IS UR BF/GF OR HUSBAND/WIFE? Nobody! Pathetic kn??

20. WHAT DO YOU FEEL NOW? mixing up..

21. WHO KNOWS UR SECRET?ooo..what kind of secret?? Nad kot!

22. THEY KEEP UR SECRET? she better does! haha..

23. ARE YOU ANGRY WITH SOMEONE? Nope!

24. WHAT DO YOU ORDER AT MCD? Double cheeseburger..Yummy!!!

25. THE LAST TIME YOU FELT SO SAD? Erm..bile ek..last month kot. =)

26. WHAT IS UR WISH FOR TOMORROW? Hopefully my students berkelakuan baik semuanya..Haha. Amin.. =)

:: A Bestfriend, A Companion, A Mother ::

WONDERFUL. FANTASTIC. EXCELLENT. TERRIFIC. COOL. GREAT. AMAZING.
And the list continues........

That’s how I describe my mum. Pn Jamaliah Ghazali. She’s the biggest part of my life. She’s the reason why I become a teacher. I was inspired by her enthusiasm in teaching. When I was young, I always thought that she loved her students more than her own kids. Her students always come to our house (I really mean ALWAYS..haha..) and she loves to cook for them. Last year, her first version students finally found her after a 10-year-searching-mission. Haha. And they are OLD! Ngengenge. Yelah, they were her students when she was 23! And they were form five students in St John, KL. Actually they kept in touch until we moved from Seremban to Penang. So during the reunion with the boys (erm...I mean men..haha) they were like..erm..41?? Euw!!! I was amazed at that time.

We share a lot of things in common. So I always say “ha..tu mama la punye pasal..sbb genetik yg mama turunkan tu la kaklong mcm tu” about a lot of things. I really want to be like her, especially in teaching profession. Last 3 years she was called for an interview at JPWP, which she didn’t know what for. After she came back she told me, “kaklong tau interview tu untuk ape? Diorang nak lantik mama jadi PK. Kalau tau tak payah buang mase mama pegi. Jangan harap la mama nak naik admin.” Well..that’s my mum. All she wanna do is teaching. She doesn’t want any other position which can diminish her teaching periods. So she just a Ketua Panitia yang mengajar macam guru biasa, 24-26 periods a week. Tambah boleh, kurang jangan. Tu prinsip dia. And that’s one thing I can’t figure out till now. Where in the world she got that fondness? How could she enjoy teaching so much?

“HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY” & “YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU”

::A Question From A Friend::

Yesterday I had a little chat with my housemate. She suddenly asked me this, “Boring tak takde boyfriend?” and I was like..dazed. Because I just realized that sometimes, not having one can be quite unexciting and the most important point is, uninspiring. Haha.

Actually masa ada bf dulu pun, kitorang bukan jenis berkepit..in fact JARANG sgt pun berjumpa..But I knew he was always there. So whenever I need someone to disrupt (hehe) I knew I had him. Whenever I couldn’t sleep at night, I knew I owned a free-access to bother someone who didn’t usually sleep at night. Ngengenge. I don’t possess that anymore.

So how did I react to my housemate? I said “boring jugak kadang2 sebab dah takde orang nak mengacau dan dikacau. Hihi” Other than that, being single is cool. Lagipun, saham makin naik. HAHA. =P

12 hours and counting..

12 more hours and I'm 24. My dad asked what I wish for my birthday.

Me: Abah! Kaklong nak boyfriend, boleh? Haha.

Dad: Kaklong suruh la ex-boyfriend kaklong carikkan.

Me: WHAT?????!!!!!!!!

Dad: Why not? Sebab die kaklong hilang byk other chances kan. Kalau dia org yg bertanggungjawab he'll do that.

Me: Duh??!! Kalau dia bertanggungjawab he wouldn't walk away..

Heheheheh...Well..That's my dad. =P

Back to the topic, erm...may I at least get one of those..????? Erm...... (",)