I was officially a TEACHER. It was surreal. Last night I cried like a baby..feeling empty for not getting chemistry as my subject of teaching. Not even Science! I knew Science and Maths are my strength. If they were taken away from me, what's there left for me? I felt like I was pursuaded to not being me. But when the school ended today, I felt the happiness started to take place of the emptiness. My students (1E) were very cooperative and respect me very2 much. (I could say that they afraid of me at first..haha..kelebihan bermuke garang a.k.a sombong!) As for today, getting the students' attention and respects were more than enough for me. =)
6 January 2009
I was officially an USTAZAH. Hey, they called me that! huhu. Mula2 rasa nak gelak pun ada bila dengar "Assalamualaikum Ustazah". But then I realized..WOW..! I have a BIGGER responsibility right now, right here. I started teaching Pendidikan Islam and it just went very smooth. I just shared everything I'd got from KISAS and SMAKL with the students. (They don't even know that THIS ustazah is actually 'ustazah segera')
7 January 2009
As usual. Organizing the class and teaching PI. Form 2 classes: They opened my eyes! Rupa2 nya banyak budak zaman sekarang tak reti mengaji. Masya Allah. Sedih rasanya. They knew the huruf and they can read but diorang langgar habis semua panjang pendek. Tajwid hancur. Betapa besarnya tanggungjawabku selepas ini. huhu.
8 January 2009
I felt exhausted! It was my first time entering these two classes. They were SO RUDE! SANGAT2. I asked this one boy to read ayat 8 Surah Al Imran. (That's their ayat hafazan and kefahaman and since that was my first time so I wanna know their level) Guess what he said? "Nape saye plak kene bace?!" So I said.."sebab saya suruh". Then what?? This was his response, "Kalo saye tak nak bace camane?!"....????!!!!!!!!! "PAP!" sekali aku tempeleng pipi dia dengan duster and I said, "macam tulah kalau awak tak nak bace". TERKEDU budak tu. Dia ingat cikgu baru macam aku boleh dibuli agaknye. Nak cabar aku sangat. Lepas tu baru dia mengaku. "saya tak tau ustazah". "Apa maksud awak, awak tak tau?" Rupa2 nya dia tak kenal alif ba ta. Boleh dia tunjuk kat "alif laaaam miim" and asked me "Ni ape ustazah?" YA ALLAH....TERKESIMA SAYA DIBUATNYA!
9 January 2009
I spent my whole night thinking about 2I/2J classes. What should I do? What approach should I try? How I'm gonna teach them? Then I came up with an idea. Cuba cara lembut. Budak2 ni dah biasa kene rotan kaw2 punya. Cuba tiba2 kite berlembut, kot2 la terkejut kan. huhu. So what happened? Alhamdulillah.. Diorang berjaya mengeluarkan buku dan menulis nota. Berkenaan ayat tu pula, aku baca dan diorang tulis rumi. Then they were asked to repeat. OK la walaupun rasa nak gelak tengok diorang terkebil2 menulis rumi. Jadinya macam ni. "Rabbana la tuziq qulu bana ba'da izhadaitana wa hablana min ladunka rahmah, innaka antalwahhab".. haha..lantakla..at least by the end of this year diorang hafal ayat tu and mudah2 an doa termakbul. Maksud ayat tu "Wahai Tuhan kami, janganlah kau pesongkan hati2 kami, setelah engkau kurniakan petunjuk kpd kami. dan kurniakanlah ramat kpd kami dari sisimu. sesungguhnya Engkaulah Maha Pemberi Kurnia".. Konklusinya, besarnya pahala yg bakal aku dpt kalau hujung tahun ni diorang dapat mengenal huruf2 Al Quran. Amin...